My body has this lovely way of telling me when I’m pushing it too hard. One morning, I wake up, lots of things on my to-do list, and when I try to get up, I can’t move. I feel like I’ve been hit by a train. My head hurts, my stomach hurts, my limbs hurt, my everything hurts. That is what happened a few weeks ago. I’m not sure if it was the flu or being pregnant or something else, but it doesn’t really matter. It was my body’s way of telling me to slow down.
When I’m completely knocked out for a whole day (possibly longer), it forces me to think about what I’m doing to my body and how I could ease up on it. I know everyone gets sick at some point or another, but usually getting sick is a signal that your body isn’t at its strongest. Many times, especially in my life, it’s because I’m too stressed and working too hard.
I went through the list of my life the last few months: working full-time, member and librarian of a demanding choir, pregnant in the first trimester, trying to maintain all my relationships, setting up more appointments than I have ever had to before (doctor, midwife, dentist, etc), maintaining the blog, oh, yeah, and I thought I’d try to write a book this month. I got 5000 words in before I had this breakdown.
And I’m probably forgetting something. I got tired just writing all that. Something had to give.
Unfortunately, it was two very important things to me: my choir and my blog. They were really the only things I could put on hold. I feel very bittersweet about quitting my choir. It is such a great outlet for me, and I love to sing, but it was running me ragged. I know it was the best decision, but sometimes that doesn’t make it any easier.
I apologize that my blog was another thing that was sacrificed. I feel like I can start easing back into it, one post at a time. Thank you for being so patient with me, and continuing to read when I take self-appointed breaks.
I think there is a lot that we can learn from being sick. It forces us to focus on our top priorities and let everything else fall away. While I don’t wish for all of you to get sick, I do wish that when you are, you will slow down, reevaluate, and make sure that you are doing what is best for you and your body.