Anyone who knows me knows that I’m terrible at keeping secrets. I’m a very transparent person. Travis likes to joke that he can see what’s going on right behind me. I’m fully aware that I should probably keep quiet about this for a few more weeks, but hey, I didn’t get the nickname “bean-spiller” for nothing.
After more than 2 1/2 years of trying, and more of those negative tests than I can count, we’re finally going to have a baby! We truly could not be happier! There have been a lot of ups and downs the past few years, and all of you have been so supportive. We have fantastic families and a loving network of friends that have been with us through it all. Thank you all for loving us and being there for us, and for how much you will love and be there for us in the next 7 months.
I’m due at the beginning of June, so I’m still not very far along. And right now, I’m going through the lovely want-to-detach-my-stomach-because-it-hurts-so-much phase, which is extra fun with working full-time and loads of singing. I am both excited and scared out of my wits to go through what so many women before me have done. The truth is, I’ve already felt overwhelmed multiple times, and I’m sure it will only get worse. But it will also only get better.
I don’t talk about my faith much here, but I recognize God’s hand in all of this. The timing is better than any I would have chosen for myself. No, I won’t be able to go to Bulgaria next year (I am NOT having this baby in a foreign country!), but Travis and I are in a stable position; we are happy and healthy; we are more prepared emotionally, financially, and spiritually than we’ve ever been. God knows so much more about my life than I do, and while that’s frustrating sometimes, it also encourages me to trust him and let him bless me in his own good time. . . and he always does!
P.S. Please also forgive me if my blogging gets even more sporadic. This growing-a-human stuff isn’t exactly easy, as I’m sure most of you know, and right now, I’m kind of in survival mode. I hear it lightens up in the 2nd trimester, but that’s still a while for me. Please just be patient while I shuffle around my life and make room for another person in it.