Creating Memories Before My Children Even Get Here

This post is going to be on the serious side as it touches on a rather personal topic: my future children.  For anyone who doesn’t know, Travis and I have been married for almost three years (in July) and we’ve been trying to get pregnant for a little over two years.  About a year after we started trying, I went to a doctor and was diagnosed with PCOS.  This has been one of my main reasons for working toward weight loss.

I won’t try to explain our struggle with infertility, because I’m not sure I could put it into words, but I will say that I believe God knows what He is doing.  I know that when we finally do have children, it will be exactly the right time for us, and I believe He is helping and preparing us every step of the way.

That said, there is quite a lot that we can do for ourselves.  Even though it may be the two of us for a while, we think like a family.  We’ve created Christmas traditions, we talk often about family dynamics and discipline, and we nurture our relationship so our children will know that their parents love each other.

I also believe that we can make memories for our children before they even arrive.  That’s what I spent time doing yesterday.  I had a full to-do list, but instead I went over to my sister-in-law’s house and hung out with her and her two-year-old.

She was going through her fabric and asked if I wanted any of it.  I’m not crafty in the least, but when I saw some fleecy, red fabric, I saw a cute baby blanket, so I put it aside.   A few minutes later, she handed me some quilted squares.  I arranged them in a pattern on the fleece, and when she looked over, she said, “You know, that would only take about a half an hour to make.  You can borrow my sewing machine, if you want.”

Even though the idea of sewing scared me, I wanted to do it.  I remembered the story behind my own baby blanket: my mom made it when she was a teenager, before I was even a possibility.  That always made me feel so special.  My mother was thinking of me before I was even born.

I wanted the same story for one of my children, so I sat down and sewed.  It’s far from perfect, but I’m proud of it.  I imagine years of cuddles, tummy time, baby fingers, spit up, stickiness, and bed time snuggling all wrapped up in love and fleece. But most of all, I look forward to the day when I can explain to my child that I made that blanket when they were still just a desperate wish, but one I knew would come true.

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7 thoughts on “Creating Memories Before My Children Even Get Here

  1. What a beautiful blanket and idea Jennie I pray God grants you the righteous desire of your mother heart. love you mom Jensen

  2. This is beautiful! Not only the blanket, but also the post. I love the idea of nurturing and making memories before our children come. I really tried to foster that kind of a connection with my babies when I was pregnant with each, and I think it is even more wonderful that you’re taking advantage of this “head start” (I’m sure it does not feel like a head start most of the time!) on the bonding.

    Found you through your comment on the small notebook, btw! Nice to “meet” you!

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